Today is the 22nd August 2007 . If you're thinking could i be feeling better, i'll tell you that being happy is a lie . I must say, that i hate liars . Yes, i do lie to people, but i'm so sure that when i lie, i have a good personal reason behind it .

Couldn't bring myself to concentrate for Econs revision . I opened the book, read a bit, and stare up into space . Seriously, why would he not tell me he has a girlfriend ? ? I'm curious, with anger of course .

Sometimes i keep on asking myself if i should change myself to be more feminine, or stay put as what i am . And most of the time, i found my answer to remain as what i am . I don't want to be too feminine because i know i will over do it and become a slut, perhaps a dyke . Moreover i want people to like not just me, but who i am . I still remember a saying from a show which explains that i am not what people call me because i am me . Name is only something which belongs to a human being, a label, an identity .

I don't know if i can still get to befriend with J like before, i don't know when i can find a guy to call my own, i don't know if i can still be as happy as what i used to be and i have no idea what i will become in near future . Because i know that i can only hope for the best and try to stay happy and trouble free .

That's it . Wish me luck for tomorrow's Econs test . Ciao .